Thursday, April 17, 2014

I'll make the most of it, I'm an extraordinary machine

Feels like this song is coming straight from my heart these days.

I seem to you to seek a new disaster every day
You deem me due to clean my view and be at peace and lay
I mean to prove I mean to move in my own way, and say,
I've been getting along for long before you came into the play


If there was a better way to go then it would find me
I can't help it, the road just rolls out behind me
Be kind to me, or treat me mean
I'll make the most of it, I'm an extraordinary machine



"Extraordinary Machine" by Fiona Apple



I certainly haven't been shopping for any new shoes
-And-
I certainly haven't been spreading myself around
I still only travel by foot and by foot, it's a slow climb,
But I'm good at being uncomfortable, so
I can't stop changing all the time

I notice that my opponent is always on the go
-And-
Won't go slow, so's not to focus, and I notice
He'll hitch a ride with any guide, as long as
They go fast from whence he came
- But he's no good at being uncomfortable, so
He can't stop staying exactly the same

If there was a better way to go then it would find me
I can't help it, the road just rolls out behind me
Be kind to me, or treat me mean
I'll make the most of it, I'm an extraordinary machine

I seem to you to seek a new disaster every day
You deem me due to clean my view and be at peace and lay
I mean to prove I mean to move in my own way, and say,
I've been getting along for long before you came into the play

I am the baby of the family, it happens, so
- Everybody cares and wears the sheeps' clothes
While they chaperone
Curious, you looking down your nose at me, while you appease
- Courteous, to try and help - but let me set your
Mind at ease

(Chorus)

-Do I so worry you, you need to hurry to my side?
-It's very kind
But it's to no avail; I don't want the bail
I promise you, everything will be just fine

If there was a better way to go then it would find me
I can't help it, the road just rolls out behind me
Be kind to me, or treat me mean
I'll make the most of it, I'm an extraordinary machine

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On

This song has a lot of good advice. I have to remember these things better.

"Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On" from Take the Weather with You by Jimmy Buffett

According to my watch the time is now
Past is dead and gone
Don't try to shake it, just nod your head
Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On

Don't try to explain it, just bow your head
Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On






I bought a cheap watch from a crazy man
Floating down canal
It doesn't use numbers or moving hands
It always just says now

Now you may be thinking that I was had
But this watch is never wrong
And If I have trouble the warranty said
Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On

And it rained, It was nothing really new
And it blew, we've seen all that before
And it poured, the Earth began to strain
Pontchartrain leaking through the door, tides at war

If a hurricane doesn't leave you dead
It will make you strong
Don't try to explain it just nod your head
Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On

And it rained, It was nothing really new
And it blew, seen all that before
And it poured, the Earth began to strain
Pontchartrain buried the 9th Ward to the 2nd floor

According to my watch the time is now
Past is dead and gone
Don't try to shake it, just nod your head
Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On

Don't try to explain it, just bow your head
Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On

Wednesday, April 02, 2014

Sappy Drug Store Love Songs

Seems like every time I'm in a store, a sappy love song comes on over the speakers, especially in the mornings for some reason. This one came on in Rite Aid this morning - I was singing it in the aisles while I walked around looking at garden gnomes.

I remember being a pre-teen and listening to these songs in the 80s and 90s and wondering if anyone would ever feel this way about me or if I would ever feel this about someone.

20+ years later, I know the answer.

And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever. 



"Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore" by REO Speedwagon



I can't fight this feeling any longer.
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow.
What started out as friendship,
Has grown stronger.
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.

I tell myself that I can't hold out forever.
I said there is no reason for my fear.
Cause I feel so secure when we're together.
You give my life direction,
You make everything so clear.

And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the window,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.

And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crushing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you.
I've been running round in circles in my mind.
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl,
Cause you take me to the places,
That alone I'd never find.

And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the wind,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.

And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crushing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.


Monday, March 24, 2014

And if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have each other...

Jason and I were out running errands Saturday morning. Rite Aide, Safeway and New Seasons - no problem. It was a beautiful day and it was nice to be out of the house and with my fave person in the world.

We did our normal tag-team routine. He has the list and I drive the cart - doing a little TCB.

We were in New Seasons getting our bulk food. This is a total PITA with the bags and tags and bin numbers but we dove in and moved through it. As we are bagging up nuts, fig bars, seeds, teas, etc. this song comes on and I look at Jason and just drop a few tears. Of course, he looks at me all concerned and I smile and tell him I love him. And then I sang along in the aisle and serenaded him with this verse:

Let them say we're crazy.
I don't care about that.
Put your hand in my hand, baby, don't ever look back.
Let the world around us just fall apart.
Baby we can make it if we're heart to heart.
 

And we can build this thing together, standing strong forever, nothing's gonna stop us now.
And if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have each other.
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now.


Nothing in the world could be more true. Nothing's gonna stop us now.


"Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now" by Starship



(PS - This mullet looks so familiar - I think Jason had the same hairdo in the 90s! And that makes me love him even more!)
 
Looking in your eyes, I see a paradise.
This world that I found is too good to be true.
Standing here beside you,
I want so much to give you this love in my heart that I'm feeling for you

Let them say we're crazy.
I don't care about that.
Put your hand in my hand, baby, don't ever look back.
Let the world around us just fall apart.
Baby we can make it if we're heart to heart.

And we can build this thing together, standing strong forever, nothing's gonna stop us now.
And if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have each other.
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now.

I'm so glad I found you, I'm not gonna lose you, whatever it takes to stay here with you.
Take it too the good times, see it through the bad times.
Whatever it takes is what I'm gonna do.

Let them say we're crazy.
What do they know?
Put your arms around me, baby, don't ever let go.
Let the world around us just fall apart.
Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart.

Oh, all that I need is you.
All that I ever need.
All that I want to do is hold you forever, forever and ever.

And we can build this thing together, standing strong forever, nothing's gonna stop us now.
And if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have each other.
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now.

And we can build this thing together, standing strong forever, nothing's gonna stop us now.
And if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have each other.
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now.

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Welcome to 2010!

We finally did it.

We got Smartphones.

iPhone 4.


Got a wicked good deal - free phones and no activation or upgrade fees.

Now we can do all kinds of cool stuff (but I'm sure you already know these things).

Why did we take the plunge? Two reasons:

1.) The youngins. Keeping in touch with our young nephews and niece will be easier. We can FaceTime and see them. Over the years, we've realized that talking to little kids on the phone is pert near impossible. It just sounds like wild jabbering. Harper showed us that we needed to step up our technology when she was running through her house waving her folks' phone at her toys and saying, "look at this, look at that" and her parents said, "no you have to talk into it, they can't see through their phones". (Point noted!) 

Also, G-man is having another surgery on the 25th and I want to be able to see and talk to my family and get pictures and texts, etc. Please send all your positive vibes to our little guy. He's such a trooper! I'm so proud of his courage.

2.) It was simply beyond time. We were paying as much for unlimited talk and text on our brick phones as we are now for many more features on the iPhones.

Go ahead and say it - welcome to 2010!

I told the guy at the store that next time we upgrade, phones probably won't even exist and it'll just be holograms or something! Ha!

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Vegas Baby! (But not the fun way)


I had a meeting in Las Vegas today. I'm on the plane now heading home. It's about 5:30pm and it's been a really long day.

When people think of Vegas, they think of gambling. I do not. I am not a gambler. Using my father's favorite expression, "might as well just stick that money up your ass!" And that's the truth. The last time I gambled, I put my quarter in the slot machine and it stole my quarter. Didn't even get to pull the handle.

Just planning to be in Vegas made my luck go south.

It started at 5:30am this morning. No driver. 7:10 am flight. Need driver stat! Called the car service and new driver was dispatched - showed up around 6am. Had mild anxiety but made to the airport with time to spare. (I guess there is some good luck mixed in with the bad.)

Then, we all boarded the plane and they found a hydraulic pump leak. We sat on the plane for an hour and then switched to another plane. The plane had just come in from Hawaii so they had to reset it and de-ice the wings. We took off around 8:50am. My meeting started at 10:30am. I got there at 11:30. And went to the wrong building. I finally got to the meeting with 10 minutes to do my part of the presentation.

Nailed it.

Off to lunch at the Grand Lux Cafe in the Venetian. Had a super yummy, gigantic seared rare ahi tuna salad. YUM!

Back to the airport with enough time for a beer.

Now I'm back on the plane heading home. We just flew over Lake Tahoe.

Wishing they had complimentary brewskis on this flight.

So it's been a day of bad luck sprinkled with good luck.

The final sign that I shouldn't gamble - I found a dime in the security line and was going to search out a dime slot machine but I lost the dime in the luggage scanner. Didn't even get to pull the handle.

And so it goes.

Friday, March 14, 2014

Change is upon us


 Spring is here.
My favorite season.
The tulips and hyacinths are blooming.
Change is upon us. 

Tuesday, March 04, 2014

Marching Right Along


So it's March already. Wow. 

Here's a bit of a photo round up for the last few weeks.
 
Yummy!
Edible Arrangement from my parents for my birthday. 
It was DEEELICIOUS!


Fence sitting. 
I saw the neighbor kid sitting on the fence for quite a while the other day. I thought the kid's angles and red hair and blue shirt against the bleak wall cut a profound image. It made me think about what I used to think about when I used to sit on fences and think.


The Pride. 
Jason and the boys sleeping in late. The animals are like self-ratcheting bookends. You move just a little and they scrunch in to make sure they are still touching you. This one is hilarious because they each have their head on a pillow.


Animal house.
I was on the floor doing yoga and Derville had worked his way into a grocery bag and was "lying in wait" for Jason to come into the living room. I grabbed my camera and was taking photos on the floor...


... when Crash got jealous and wanted a photo opp too...


... so we took a smoochie selfie. Then I took photos of both of them.


Hello March! Let's have some sun!

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Stubborn Love

"Stubborn Love" by The Lumineers

So keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, keep your love



She'll lie and steal, and cheat, and beg you from her knees
Make you think she means it this time
She'll tear a hole in you, the one you can't repair
But I still love her, I don't really care

When we were young, oh, oh, we did enough
When it got cold, ooh, ooh, we bundled up
I can't be told, ah, ah, it can't be done

It's better to feel pain, than nothing at all
The opposite of love's indifference
So pay attention now, I'm standing on your porch screaming out
And I won't leave until you come downstairs

So keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, keep your love

And I don't blame you dear for running like you did all these years
I would do the same, you'd best believe
And the highway signs say we're close but I don't read those things anymore
I never trusted my own eyes

When we were young oh, oh, we did enough
When it got cold, ooh, ooh we bundled up
I can't be told, ah, ah, it can't be done

So keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, keep your love

Head up, love
Head up, love
Head up, love
Head up, love

Monday, February 24, 2014

Heart Mandala

Jason made this heart mandala for my birthday card.



It's hanging next to my work station sending me love all the time. 

I heart mandalas!